:: Gratitude check-list to follow ::

Having a major WTH moment!

Adversity is what makes us stronger right? ... Will someone please hold a mirror up to my soul and quick, I want to witness these muscles of time. I would like to see just how strong I've become.
Please do not become delusional just yet.


Life is full of changes this I know ... every up has a down and every high has a low. Right now I'm experiencing changes, humiliation, greed, reclusive-ness and NO I need you moments, embarrassment and feelings of anxious-ness. Humph! Seems like all the necessary makings of humble pie ... I'd like my slice warm with a scoop of vanilla ice cream on top.

I want and I want and I want ... What I really want is to stop being so anxious, relax and live in the moment. Having to re-learn almost every harmful way of thinking is a challenge in itself but one that I recently told myself (because yes WE talk daily) I'd gladly stand up and take.

Random: May 2007 I said I'll move to Kalifornia September 2007
Reality: How will I make it happen? ...
Results: Feet touched Kalifornia soil September 15, 2007

5 months ... I had focused so much on getting here and what to do when I arrive that I never actually saw the wonderful and positive aspects about making such a determined voyage.

... And so I sulk because I miss things, and I miss things because I want things, and I want things because I need things, and I need things because ... I just do!

This is when life started ALL OVER AGAIN literally!
[Insert small fish in a big pond]
* verklempt moment *

Do I love it? YES

Would I change it? NO

I'm just simply having a WTH moment and it's okay :O )